driftingwithoutdestination
feel the fear and just do it anyway.

Sunday, August 31, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 12:26 AM
St stevens church!!!


You noe wad? Today we went to a new church way more asians than anything right? Its like not a caucasian in sight today!? Because after that we went to boxhill and in simplified term boxhill is like an asian market!!!! There's herbs (chinese) herbs and all asian food!? Like some ang mors please!!!?


Saturday, August 30, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 5:14 AM
Hair DYE!!!!?


The title of this post is because right now i'm dying my hair! U know why? Because i miss S'pore too much I want to forget it so i'm changing my appearance cause i think i need it and i'm tired of my black hair so i think brown is ok right? I told my best friend already she said it was ok and yeah!


Thursday, August 28, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:20 PM
Lonely?!@


You now what? I've been writing crap like i'm getting stronger friends? or new ones? Today i realise how damned wrong i was they are considered friends cause i talk to them sometimes right? Well i just realise i couldn't make friends to save my life!? I can't even talk to anyone during free period either...


Wednesday, August 27, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:18 PM
Grad night?!!!


You noe wad? The people are way of what i expected like i thought it'd be cheap here but they have like green screen? like a background u can put watever u want at. And it's like just for a project.... Their grad night is more spendful it like: a helicopter coming over to watch the party with a camera?????!!!! Its like helicopter?! Just imagine how expensive it is!!!!?


Tuesday, August 26, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:30 PM
SIblings?


I've known my friend for 3 months and u noe wad? I didn't even noe that one of my friends brother was in my class?!


Monday, August 25, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:26 PM
Yeah much?

I'm damn bored so yeah this is it i guess....


Sunday, August 24, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:12 PM
Generations!!


In church yesterday it was about generations how different we are but how we fit in together anyway... So like this speaker(person) and her son came he was 19 and she was middle aged... They were like so speaking the truth and stuff its like the 19 year old likes screamer music and his mum likes... classical?! I know quite typical right? Then as i was listening i didn't really noe the meaning of the word means like youth? kids? middleaged? old? at least that clarified....


dawn wrote this @ 1:21 AM
Fate


Did you know what the word fate means? I know i'm not supposed to believe in it so i'm just curious about things i don't know and stuff... it means your future is was written before u were even born... That alone i hate!!! Do u noe how it feels if ur fate is written and can't be change?! Its like this random old guy comes up to you saying save us!!!! Its your fate???!!! Its really annoying for me to even think people believe in it and are sure it'll save?! Its like ur meant to do something maybe u don't like in fact u hate!?


Friday, August 22, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 7:46 PM
ERAGON!!!


Yesterday we watched eragon so nice!!! I haven't really watched for a long time thats why? But theres always a first time for anything... You noe the picture?<
I doubt anybody says things like this anymore! It was fantasy but thats why i like pon and zi BTW the name of the animation. It has things u'd wish someone would say to u right? I know! And its very cute!!!


Thursday, August 21, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:36 PM
Yeah!!!!!?


Today i made even more frenz or at least stronger frenz! It was so much fun! Except one flaw they're not in my class! If they were it would be so much fun! Than maybe i would forget!


Wednesday, August 20, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 10:55 PM
Crazyness?


I get the feeling crazyness is a virtue here! Alot of people her almost as crazy as my friends back home! Now iseriously miss my friends! So sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate almost everything in my life now!


dawn wrote this @ 2:06 AM
Meaning?!


You know what? Look at the pic! Itd like very artsy right? Just imagine so creative! and so young! The person who made this is like what 12? Thats my age! And i feel like so worthless i was supposed to be like labeled a jock cause i am very active and i've made it to a team! But have you ever wondered what your meaning in life is? Because of course god made the world to happen for a reason right? Of course so why put us here? I wonder sometimes, i wrack my brain just thinking about it! Man, i wish something or somebody has a reason i wish they did in a book, a website anything? I don't noe just screw everything i've said ok?


Monday, August 18, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:09 PM
Man!

Today i think i made an asian boy cry nvm!


Sunday, August 17, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:10 PM
Okaaay!!!?


Today boring la! And everything's just random i guess! Oh and should i dye my hair?


dawn wrote this @ 11:09 PM
Okaaay!!!?



Saturday, August 16, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:54 PM
Much Better!


Today i feel much better and nothing much to write so bla!


dawn wrote this @ 11:54 PM
Much Better!



Friday, August 15, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 7:25 PM
Troubesome La!


Today is Saturday not much! Just woke up and stuff! Last night we all went out to cell group it was boring and we've been here for over over 2months and only now do they realise i'm tall?! Nvm I dun care its beter ifi was treated shorter anyway! We played monopoly and cluedo last night guess who were my compeotition? 2 7year old and a 5 year old was so troublesome man! Plus one of te 7 year olds wa dillion!!!!? Nvm i hate him so i dun care!


Thursday, August 14, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:59 PM
Frenz!!!!!


Today huh? Well we had to plan our grad night i hated most of it u noe why? I was like hating most of time! I feel so sad that i'm sharing ideas i wanted to use in SMPS here!? It was ok i guess just that i was pratically hating myself by contributing don't noe what i'm saying than forget it! Oh and today i guess i made a whole lot of frenz. i told my bro he like said i expected something like that which was kinda a compliment really!
While we were planning we were like /\ that pic!It wasn't wad i expected but even though its cold here people here give me a warm feeling don't noe? than never mind then



Wednesday, August 13, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:02 PM
Culture Day!


Today is Cultural Day!!! Abit boring and abit too much to take in 3 hours with alot of laughing in between. First we had storytelling by someone called JB Rowley sound familiar? And her duck Daffodil or daffy she called it? Sounds quite childish and well it is. Except her story's weren't they were very interesting like stories i actually like there aren't many so its quite rare!
Then we had ORIGAMI?! I made like a claw but got scolded because they only wanted us t make cranes and samurai hats?! What do any of them have to do with each other?!
Then my favourite AFRICAN DRUMMING and DANCING!!! I love drums and would just love a set and lessons as well as guitars! Then the dancing was so fun! Its like steps so simple together in harmony so beautiful...
Then we had a catwalk dun worry i didn't do it but the things they were wearing were like chong sum, sari, and everything S'pore has! It was so hard to sit through it knowing i might never wear them again!!!!!
I miss my frenz like crappola (new word i made up hehehe...)


dawn wrote this @ 12:40 AM
Xiao Hai Bu Ben! Children aren't stupid!


Yesterday i was watchingthis movie it was a few years old already... It was from S'pore and nearly made me cry! throughout the movie but of course i didn't. U noe why? The more they filmed around the scene to show the location... Well the scenes took place in places very familiar to me cause we've lived around there before. And the more i watched it the more i understood that even if i brawled my eyes out i'd still regret it and won't benefit if i cry! in anyway... I missed calling people Ang Mor but here in Australia almost everybody is an ang mor and i can't call everbody one right? Plus no one here really understands my slang and how i talk with the singlish and all. I also get the feeling people are getting used to me in school. People talk to me more than usual and i'm used to getting their accent in front of them like i can talk with the accent but not for very long so i keep quiet alot. Even though i'm used to it and all i still miss my SMPS frenz even more like how we made fun of smths and how we used to talk to each other and laugh... And in SMPS i used to noe like everybody in the school! I like ruled it cause i'm one of the noisiest!


Monday, August 11, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:20 PM
S'pore!!!!!


Have you ever felt like some type of force is holding u down? Other than gravity? Well today in school we watched the Olympics in school again and well the channels here have nothing but the Olympics for all Aussie players only!? I wanted so badly to see the uniform and skill of the S'pore team and there was a boy in the class from S'pore too! His accent though id stronger than mine as in like the singlish slang and all! And his been here for a few years already! Have you ever had an inner voice in you? Screaming so loud! You never listen to it? It can be ur concience or ur gut telling u! If u were watching a situation like that on tv you'd feel like so frustrated at the character right? Then just imagine the people who care about u the most and won't they be frustrated with u too?!


dawn wrote this @ 12:08 AM
School.....


Today was.... boring! We had same old same old except we watched the Olympics on tv in school i feel kinda relaxed here if anyone from here went to my old school at this period and at my age! They would be struggling drastically! I like thi place but not like i dun regret coming here though!


Saturday, August 9, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 10:44 PM
Church!?


Today classic go to church... come back from church then lunch and stuff like that except today we are arn't going to my cousins place it just became more boring! Today i have a feeling something good is gonna happen but when? You noe gut feelings? Well i trust them and thats all for today i guess! Happy Olympics !!!


dawn wrote this @ 4:27 AM
National Day!


Today is my dad's birthday and national day in S'pore! Now my parents are 43 and so is S'pore! I like S'pore because its archieved quite alot for a young and small country! And so has my dad! I feel like its great to at least have a small part of S'pore is with us!!!


Friday, August 8, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 1:28 AM
Mini Olympics?!


You noe the song 'pictures of you'? Well i was thinking of that song got the pic! Today in school they had what they call BNPS mini olympics. Well its like there are stations and u have to switch every 15 mins and stuff like that! The sports were based on cultural sports! like usa is baseball and other crap like that!


Wednesday, August 6, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:58 PM
Comforted and Frustrated!?


Have you felt like when you have just fit in you or ur new friends get frustrated? Well if u dun ur not me! I feel all mixed up! like i made alot of friends and yet i feel they should have every right to hate me sometimes like the pic i feel remixed but u still are the same in one way or another if u dun get wad i'm saying? forget about it!


dawn wrote this @ 11:58 PM
Comforted and



Tuesday, August 5, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:23 PM
Napfha? Beep test? What's the Difference?!


Today well... i had a fitness test which is called napfa in S'pore schools. 1.6km run = beep test... Pull ups = push ups... sit ups= sit ups... shuttle run =shuttle run... standing broad jump = long jump. and so on like its all so like no one could see the difference besides the name... Today after school i got an sms from andrea from S'pore!!! She told me her grandpa is in 3rd stage cancer i felt so sad for her i can't believe i can't be with here right now... I told my cousin she like was 'Omg! thats so sad tell her i'm so sorry for her!' And drea if ur reading this i'm so sorry also i think i cursed him since i'm a Cancer and i left and this problem became worst...


dawn wrote this @ 1:24 AM
Closer...?

Today no pic cause this isn't really my com and stuff... Today i think you noe the boys in my school well there are those my age and they are very sporty and quite strong but they kinda quite kind not what i imagined of jocks really... What about you? Because i used to be kinda a jock in school in S'pore because i was in the team for netball junior but not senior because my father couldn't bring me for the training and stuff... I remembered my friends telling me i didn't act like a egoistic jock like my team mates and stuff well... i was relieved and then this year i was supposed to be a senior but i already told u i can't and i looked at wad the netballers act like! They ended up being what i imagined any old jock would... For example i had a friend she's been with me since grade1 and when i've just migrated she backstabbed everybody including me! I deleted her e-mail and because that was netball season so she said it was stress and stuff ... now the season's over and she has been talking to all the backstabbed like nothing's happened i will never forgive her! She actually criticised me after everything! I even told her i was scared one time if any of my closest friends criticised me or my other friends? ;(


Sunday, August 3, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 11:08 PM
School....


Today i feel like the guy in the pic like wanting to reject whatevers happened the previous few days i wish people can at least like i dunno nevermind! I don't feel like writing anymore bye:D!


dawn wrote this @ 11:08 PM
School....



dawn wrote this @ 1:00 AM
church!


Today we had church... And i coul've cried there and then because you know some churchs have similar songs? Well there was a song my favourite song in christian song in S'pore because it's tune was so touching and the lyrics got to me and it was sung by one of my favourite teachers and everything! Then i remembered my cell friends as well cause they used to be and still are support singers in the church and stuff and they had to perform a song it was beautiful remembering the actions going along with the music i missed almost everything in S'pore right now! But i feel like i should have no regrets cause it wasn't like my fault we migrated here! And another thing my class here was asked to make thier own family tree right? and my mum had a father but i never met him because he died on the day i was born i wondered after these days whether he was my past life not that i believe in that stuff but i wonder.... he was said to be a great leader and a good friend am i like tat?
And i find it quite easy to fit in now but i'm like 2 times bigger than one tenth of my level which bugs me quite alot but i'm grateful tat we are not poor and starving like what i expected us to be because without a house to start with! I'm kinda relieved!


Friday, August 1, 2008 dawn wrote this @ 8:20 PM
Cell Group Here!?


Yesterday we had cell group and it waqs a disaster dillion sat on arron's head there was blood at the ear... OMG! its like so painful just looking at it! So u see dillion's weight is horrible! My gosh if he sat on anyone younger or smaller their skul would just be crushed and i doubt they'll still be alive so dillion is a FAT Monster!